` Owned 2 'Thanks' (;X)
Other than thanks what else can I still say...

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` Chat with Qib

It has been a long time since I chatted with him.
We had a long chat...Just like we did before.
We talked the truth.
And he told me something which I wanted to find out from him...
He asked me to bid farewell because he is going to log out directly when he finished the story...
(-Story-)

And with that, he signed off...

(;X)

(;X)

(;X)

(;X)

Don't take too hard on yourself, what happened between Dodo and I.
It's not your doings or what.
(;X)

(;X)

Qib, you're a nice guy.
(;X)
Keep your promise (;X)
And remember your promise to me.

Break the promise and I'll break your neck.

Qib, thanks for everything.
Your words made me feel better.
Even if it's just chatting about things like height. >_>
I just needed someone to talk to I guess.

Thanks for being there to have this conversation that lasted for 2 hour 18minutes, from 29May 11.45PM to 30May 2.03AM.
Thanks Qib.
Thanks.

Take it as it is ;
That's life ;
Accept it .
~2:30 AM

Sometimes . I feel very lost .
I have no idea who I am .
Why am I living .
Whut am I living for .

My whole life is just like a mess .
Sometimes it may seem that I don't care but I actually mind .
It may seems that I am not hurt but I am .

It just pains me to lose one friend after another and can't find one true one who I can talk to .
Why is it so hard .
For me to find one true friend .
And everytime I thought I found one .
Something screws and poof .
That friend would be gone .

I don't understand anyone .
I don't pretend I do .
I tried but I failed .
I tried again and I failed again .
No matter where , be it real life or virtual game .
It's the same .
No matter where I try to hide .
The same ending happened .

Why .

Just minuted ago .
I found out something .
With my own eyes .
Not through the mouth of another .
Not through the eyes or ears of another .
I saw it with my own eyes .

And I want to say something .
From the deepest of my heart .
Dame .
You will always be a part of me .
Even when we don't talk to each other I know I still mind .
Mind the fact that I am sitting so close to you yet can't talk to you .
Mind the fact that we were once friends .
Close friends but colder than strangers .

Hurt again and again yet you were always someone I could depend on .
No one understands .
No one cares .
No one .

Ever since that day .
I missed you . Alot .
But somehow , it never got to you .
Maybe this was why I can never ever get a true friend .
Maybe this was why I always loses those closest to me .
Maybe this was why my life was so screwed up .

I am hurt .
i am badly hurt .

I can't recover .
I never will .
I hate the scars but I can't remove it .
I tried to cover up but it always show .
No matter how I tried .
No matter whut I did .
No matter how hard I tried .
No matter whut I do .

Things still screw .
I'm tired of being me because there is no one I can talk to .
I seriously think . I suck .
Suck as a human , suck as a virtual game player .
Not to mention . Suck as a friend if I even have one .

.__. When is this gonna end .
I tried not to cry but the tears fell .
I tried to hold them back but they just rolled down .

I miss alot of people .
I wish I can turn time around .
I wish I can .
But I can't .
It was the stark truth that I hate to accept .
The cruel reality which sinks in and hits me hard .

I thought after Year 2004 when the greatest disaster hit me , nothing would hurt me .
Nothing would make me cry .
But I'm still weak .
Lols . Whut is wrong with me .
I just hate myself . ~.~

Take it as it is ;
That's life ;
Accept it .
~7:32 PM

(;X) because I miss 6B .
Where I found YingTong , Michelle .
Where they helped me find friendship when I couldn't find it .
Where they made the rest of my Primary school life worthwhile .
I went to 6B's Blog ...
6B ...
Sound so unfamilar but also where the warmth I felt were the strongest .
I miss playing Ice-And-Water .
I miss YingTong ...
I miss Michelle ...
I miss our whole group of girls playing toegther .
I miss those times ...

Take it as it is ;
That's life ;
Accept it .
~2:53 PM

It's been so long since the last update of any of my blogs so here I am now since Audition is not working for the time being.
New patch.
Inclusive of:
- 7 POPULAR SONGS
- 100+ new avatars (hope it's not disappointing ;O)
- 100 new dancemove
- Diary Series Mode (Standard diary, premium diary, couple diary)
- Removal of DJ Steve's songs
Supposingly up to 3.30pm .

` (;X) .

(;X)

When I remember how he lied to me about his birthday .
I feel damn .__. Sad ?
(;X)
I'm lost .

(;X)
Not just yesterday .
Hereby I want to record down of whut happened .
Parts of my memory .
;X

(;X)

(;X)
Lols .

(;X)

(;X)

(;X)

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` MYE

It ended I supposed .
With me screwing up quite a number of papers .
Lols .
AMaths .
EMaths .
All the Sciences .
K whutever .
Practically the whole MYE .
== !!
Today was the last paper .
E.History and I left the last paragraph .
== ~
Angry but .
Haix .
I still need to go back to school tomorrow .
For Mr. Teo ?
Who wanted to talk to us about the new teacher or whutever .
Something like that which I head from Javier ;O .

***

` And Dodo MIA-ed .

(;X)
I know I sound crude .
But .
I mean it .
Don't I ?
Yes I do .

***

` Changed the symbols .

My happiness "=D" .
Changed .
To ";)" , ".__." , ";O" .
-

;) : (;X)

.__. : (;X)

;O : (;X)

(;X)

I would still be back for ~LOONIES~ .
For the FAM Channel .
Like the FAM Leader of -MeToYou- .
Our FAMs are the thing that made playing Audition worthwhile .
(;X) .
It's the fruit of labour and makes Audition the first online game that makes us feel worth playing .

(;X)

***

` (;X) .

I wrote the letter to Dame .
The one I promised myself I would write it .
And I placed it in her bag together with the rest of the messages from our class .
(;X) .

***

Audition is still under patch and I guess I will go on blog hopping ^^ .
(;X) .

Haix ~

(;X) ...

Started Typing : 1.55PM
Finished Typing : 2.31PM

Take it as it is ;
That's life ;
Accept it .
~2:39 PM